Amarantine

      Because of  the tiny shortcomings,I always puts myself into the cliff of great danger situation : Ridicule, indifferent, stabs, shame; or prisoned me into a blackhole which bewildered: Melancholy, depressed,lonely, paces back and forth. . . more than many times I saved myself from a hopeless situation or an adverse circumanstance mysteriously.I puzzled the true meaning of life,questioned is there a ture value of thinking in the end of the world, perhaps I fell into the speculation swamp,but this certainly not worry about imaginary troubles or moves the stone to pound my own foot, I only am want clearly to feel the sound of the brust of the stone hitting the ground which makes one shock and from this the dazzling spark which focuses attention on millions of people,and that moment all of the world people respets to the truth with deep veneration awe.
    I stand upright many times in despairs,the lonely ruins tenaciously;and strong my soul in the injury and the misery;matured my mind at the setback and the defeat; All these aches all nourished and have enriched my life and drive me learn the wisdom of the handling affairs and calm down in the angry unceasingly, perhaps this was the ancient often says "confront a person eith the danger of death and he will fight to live", or the people always says the courage of the fighting against  the destiny,this is me:living,resisting,pondering,wheting the soul in the laughter, anger, sorrow, and happiness of the growth process, explains the sence of the life in the course of the researching of the heaven. . .

Paroles: G.Bassiak. Musique: Georges Delerue   1962
autres interprètes: Vanessa Paradis
note: B.O. du film "Jules et Jim" 

Elle avait des bagues à chaque doigt,
Des tas de bracelets autour des poignets,
Et puis elle chantait avec une voix,
Qui, sitôt, m'enjôla.

Elle avait des yeux, des yeux d'opale,   
Qui me fascinaient, qui me fascinaient.
Y avait l'ovale de son visage pâle
De femme fatale qui m'fut fatale {bis}.

On s'est connus, on s'est reconnus,
On s'est perdus de vue, on s'est r'perdus d'vue,
On s'est retrouvés, on s'est réchauffés,
Puis on s'est séparés.

Chacun pour soi est reparti.
Dans l'tourbillon de la vie.
Je l'ai revue un soir, hàie, hàie, hàie,
Ça fait déjà un fameux bail {bis}.

Au son des banjos,je l'ai reconnue.
Ce curieux sourire qui m'avait tant plu.
Sa voix si fatale, son beau visage pâle,
M'émurent plus que jamais.

Je me suis soûlé en l'écoutant.
L'alcool fait oublier le temps.
Je me suis réveillé en sentant,
Des baisers sur mon front brûlant {2x}.

On s'est connus, on s'est reconnus.
On s'est perdus de vue, on s'est r'perdus de vue,
On s'est retrouvés, on s'est séparés.
Dans le tourbillon de la vie.

Chacun pour soi est reparti.
Dans l'tourbillon de la vie.
Je l'ai revue un soir ah là là,
Elle est retombée dans mes bras. {bis}

Quand on s'est connus,   
Quand on s'est reconnus,
Pourquoi se perdre de vue,
Se reperdre de vue ?

Quand on s'est retrouvés,
Quand on s'est réchauffés,
Pourquoi se séparer ?

Alors tous deux on est repartis
Dans le tourbillon de la vie.
On à continué à tourner,
Tous les deux enlacés.{tri}

       Waiting for entrance notice is a long way,I'm loitering 4 months,no work doing,no exam to struggling,bored to death,just eating,sleeping reading,surfing,watching TV...How terrible!Wasting these worthy youth!

     Maybe it is a good time for me: to think,I can calm down,to self-examination,to reserching my deep soul,to review the past time...These days, I often to watch Interview Programme,especial famous person,such as Yanglan,Zhangyue.I found life experience is always mutual and always begins with similar course of the struggle of adverse circumstances.But people usually focusing on their merits,magnified their advantages,to put them in a highpoint to admire.So, they usually looks mighty,prefect.Actually this is not so,they live in the same way as we live:birth&old age,sickness&death-the lot of man;grew up from an ignorant puerile&naive child to a mature wise&farsighted man.

    When the conpère asked Yanglan,"In your glossary,what's the meaning of Youth?what do you think about life?"Yang said,"In my eyes,Youth is means you have a lot time to make mistake,and you have some opportunities to correct it!When I was a young girl, I often imagined my future profession,I always thinks that: How disappointing when you know your own future occupation!Life should always with the adventure,that is deserve to be called colorful life,wonderful life!But I don't think that at present,my life experience tells myself,whatever the great work you've done,you are still a common person,you are not a something!If I have a chance to backward to the youth,I had know my future profession,I should not think it's a bad thing,I should have been took my all effort to struggle that aim rather then to complain it's not exciting!At this time ,I know the ture meaning of life:I've just live in the same way as the common people;my family,my family members and my friends is my all life,that is the most worthy thing of mine."Yes, that is the true life!Adventure is very exciting,it attracts so many people endeavor to struggle with destiny for their dreams.But we are not millionaire or persons of royal lineage,we are unable to bear too many tribulation,we are unable to undure worthless test.So, we need make a reasonable programme of our own life!To find a suitable stage to display our capability,if do that,we can get access to  success as soon as possible.

      From Zhangyue,I've learned a piece of life experience also.Because of fat,Zhang was a self-based girl,in the course of her adolescent,she usually worry about this promble,after a long repeatedly way,she understand an uncomplicated principle:As a matter of fact,fat is her own personal affair,it's none of others'business,it's should not mind others'sights.This is a simple sense as we know,but we usually vexed ourselves similar as Zhang.Actually,we should take a common attitude to face everything,persist in our method,do not mind rumours&slanders.It just like Gigi Liang's Croward lyrics"I can not make mistake in my world；I do not care about you laugh me at your world"

   That's the tips which I've learned from Talk show.

    Sometimes,in the others'sights we are like buffons;only in our own sights we know what we are.

   TODAY,should be as a special day to memorize,to examine,or to celebrate.

  A Spanlish genius win the France open-march,he is only 18......

  Miracle usually happened with cowboy......

  THE most important exam of China holding on today,national college entrance exam.

  There are huge students attending in this chanllage......

  4 years ago,I had a rubbish performance......

My life has changed......

  4 years has past,I have became a mature man from a shy-person.

  4 years trainning in military:steel myself,harden myself,discipline myself,the whole exprience is painful,it's really a painful memory,"fucking you, bullshit!Your grandfather is graduate!!!"I'm shoutted on Gradute Day,I throwed my hat,I wish the all suffering sin and wound could be past,just like a wind......But it's Impossible,just like the youth will never return......No meeting,No dinner party,No football march,No autograph album,No graduation photo,that's the end of my college day:an article has no period,but it's end......

  I'm come back as a common person live in a peaceful style,my life still as my QQ nickname:a romantic knight roam&freely around countryside;just like this my favorite song,a lowering attractive voice......

"Elle avait des bagnes a chaque doigt

Des tas de braceletsautour des poignets

Et puis elle chantait avec une voix

Qui,sitot,m'enjola.

Elle avait des yeux,dex yeux d'apale

Qui me tascinaient,qui me fascinaient

Y avait l'ovale de son visage pale

De femme fatale qui m'fut......

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